Self preservation is something all of us humans practice on a daily life, we guard ourselves from becoming vulnerable to anything we believe will hurt us. We bite our tongues and leave things unsaid all the time, things that would leave us exposed. We maintain a constant “front” because if we fully give into what we want, it would mean we would have to let go and finally become vulnerable. Some of us have this incredible need to be able to break through, mostly because we know that what’s on the other side will make us incredibly happy… but yet we’re scared. And I wonder, if we know deep in our hearts that the breakthrough would be worth it, why don’t we just go ahead and do it? I have been here, a couple times, and in order to preserve myself I have become cold, unavailable, distant. And still, still… for whatever reason, I still feel I have to bite my tongue, not to loose control and become vulnerable myself. Because again, if I give into what I really want and loose my tongue, it would probably mean I will have to let go.